My husband over the past few years has been through a lot emotionally. Unfortunately this has left him in a deeply conflicted place when it comes to religion and our participation in it. He has stated that he thinks he is an atheist and that the only reason he goes to synagogue is "because that is where the Jews are." But now more and more he doesn't want to go to services at all. I want to go and miss the Jewish rhythm it brings to my week.I don't want to start doing things alone, that is the ghost of marriage/divorce past and not the road I will choose. Yet this dilemma leaves me in the deeply uncomfortable position of wanting, no, perhaps needing to be more Jewish in my daily activities.
Jewish. This new phase is is challenging me in ways I didn't see coming .